Letter from a Fiancée

Dear Sue,

I have decided to write to you directly instead of going through Dick. I have never really talked to you personally about the feelings I experience when you are around and I need to let you know how I really feel about you.

I have some very angry feelings towards you and some deep resentments. I want you to know that Dick is my fiancé and I love him very much. I know that he has known you since his youth, long before I came into his life, but I feel really threatened by you and the relationship he has with you. You have caused many problems in his previous marriage with Nicole and you played a big role in the deterioration of their marriage. I will not allow you to ruin my relationship with Dick the way you did with Nicole. Dick was never really honest with Nicole about you and I don't think that at that

time he really knew you as well as he knows you now. Dick has told me

everything he knows about you and I really appreciate the fact that he has shared this information with me. I have met you on several occasions and I know that you are a kind and gentle person with deep feelings. I know that you are considerate and care about other people's feeling and that is why I am writing to you. I know that you will understand my feelings towards you even if they upset you.

Dick is my fiancé and I want to marry him and spend the rest of my life with him. I know that he loves me and wants the same. You however, are also a part of his life and I resent that. I feel threatened by you and I am no longer comfortable staying at home when you are here. That is why I haven't seen you lately. I go off shopping and only return when Dick is alone. I feel very uneasy having to share Dick with you. It hurts me so much to know that he is attracted to you. I think that you dress provocatively to turn him on and as you know, it does. He loves your short skirts and your long blonde hair and to tell you the truth, I am very jealous. He is mine and I am finding it very difficult dealing with this situation.

I hate it when you take everything masculine about him and change it into something feminine. I love his hairy muscular legs, his bare broad chest, his beautiful penis and his bristly face. These are the things that as a woman, I am so turned on by. You take all these things away from him and I hate you for that.

When I am not around, he has hot bubble baths with you and then he picks out sexy clothes for you to wear. The clothes I wear are so different from the clothes he prefers on you. He likes you to wear lace and satin and he becomes sexually turned on when you wear lingerie. It was not too long ago when I really enjoyed wearing such things, but now I feel as though I am second best. I just don't seem to turn him on as much as you do and this breaks my heart. I am so jealous of you. I wish you could just leave and never come back, but I know that he loves you as he loves himself and that you will always be apart of his life. I know that I must accept you if I want to remain a part of his life.

I really wish that the two of you could just be friends. I think that I would be much more accepting of you if you and he shared a platonic relationship rather than a one with so many sexual under tones. I would much prefer it if you would wear leggings and a sweater when you were with Dick rather than the clothes you wear. It's not like you are going the Academy awards Sue, you are just sitting in the living room for God's sake. Must you always be so extravagant? Why do you feel you have to entice Dick sexually? I hate that about you.

Sometimes when he and I are making love I feel that he is thinking about you and I can't tell you how awful that makes me feel. I feel so empty inside and I am no longer turned on by him. You are like a shadow that follows him everywhere and you are always on his mind. I hate you for that. I want to be the most important person in his life. I hate sharing him with another woman.

I don't like it when you use my make-up and my vanity table when I am not here and I don't want you to wear my clothes or my perfume. They belong to me, not you. And I really hate it when you use my pads ( I know that you are not menstruating) Leave my pads alone. Buy your own if you must wear them!

I don't understand why Dick wants to take you out in public with him and then ask me to come along for support. It is really hard for me to be with him when all his attention is on you and not me. He finds you so attractive and is so consumed by you and I am so very jealous of the fact that he pays more attention to you than he does to me. Perhaps you are his ideal woman and I just don't quite measure up to his expectations. He tells me I do and that he really loves me and yet it is you who intrigues him so...not me. There are so many things I just don't understand and that I am angry about.

I really tried to be your friend. In the past, you and I have spent many nights sitting around talking and doing the "girl things", but unfortunately, when you are here, Dick leaves and that is the part that really bothers me. He can be alone with you whenever he wants, if not physically, mentally, but the three of us can never be together. Whenever you are around he disappears and I miss him very much.

I really feel for you Sue. I know that you do not have any other

people in your life besides Dick. The two of you go back a long way and I know that the two of you share something very few other people share. I am concerned about my relationship with Dick and I would really appreciate it if you would try to think about my feelings. Please try to understand that I love Dick very much and I don't want to lose him to you. I am afraid that he will want to spend more time with you and less with me.

I know that perhaps you and Dick would like it if we could all make love together, but as I have told Dick, I am not attracted to females and not only would I feel uncomfortable in such a situation, I'm afraid that jealousy would consume me and I would no longer be turned on by Dick even when you are not around. Just knowing that when he and I are together that you are always on his mind is hard enough for me to deal with. I know that inviting you into our bedroom would ruin the relationship Dick and I have.

I really don't know what we can do about this situation. Perhaps if we are all open and honest with each other, we might find a possible solution to this problem. All I ask is that you honor my feelings regarding this issue as I have always honored yours and Dick's.

Marie